Summer time

Holiday seasons are fast approaching. Christmas and new year, the smells of holidays.
Shopping sales, relaxed mood, and happy souls everywhere.
Summer dress, bikinis and the smiling sun :)
It is infectious.

Is summer time.
Great festives seasons, great dinner parties.
Good food with good wine, great friends and great laughs, what else can you ask for?

In the house of 5/15 oxford street, and now 11/404 high street, the air is full of love, laughters and lots of girlie gossips. Little space, great warmth.
Thanks for the lovely year and all those good old memories.
I am sure you all gonna miss me, your great mama !!

I will miss you all too :)

Feeling Sick

Not well..
Cant seems to be able to get rid of the bug.
Headache, tired, cough...
Panadol after panadol...

Oh please, please go away and let me get better !

Is the time of the year again..

Is the time of the year again..

Reflection of the past 12 months..
Projection into the next 12 months.

Holidays, reunion and get-togethers..
End of destination and time to say good-bye.

Wrapping up and closing down..
Preparation to kick start a new beginning.

Excitements and hopes for the future..
Disappointment and guilt to what is left behind.

Is a mixed bag of feelings.

Home Hunting

Buying property for the very first time in Malaysia. It was harder than I thought.
It is a different game altogether.
Because we are buying a 'home' and not just a 'house'.

To buy a property, you look at the figure and the balance sheet, and make a investment decision.
We have done this in the past, but this time is slightly different.
We have pour emotions into this home-buying process, And emotions complicates things..:)

A home is a place where you find comfort, find safety. Is a very personal space.
It is a base for a family, for growth and warmth, a place you find support and love.
We are getting closer to our home-sweet-home. :)

To embrace life

About embracing life...

Life has all odds. Death didnt always come on schedule, or as planned. It never did. All of life's strange twists and turns never led to where you expected them to be. It is impossible to even guess at one's destiny.

I was touched the love of 2 persons, fighting the odds of becoming together.
They have taken wisdom and courage to put thier lives back together, to reach out and to hold on tight.
Sometimes is so much easier to never try, to never touch at all, to run away and hide.
But they had dared, they danced, they had trudged on through the dark and the cold, defied the demons, faced the terrors and refused to run away.
It was more than just the act of love, it was an act of courage, and of faith, and hope and belief.
They have not give in to death, but to embrace life.
They have carefully woven the fabric of life, with much grace.

If you have found what you want, fight for it, until you reach the destination safely. To be there despite all the storms. It is a choice not easily made, and it takes a delicate balance to reach safety. Embrace life, and you will find your safe harbour.

Things to do before I turn 30

Here are the things I want to do before i turn 30.

1. Get married, have a baby and a lovely family.
2. Go to Europe - ski at the Swiss Alps, drink champagne in a Paris bar, and ride the Gondola in Venice.
3. Drive a NICE car.
4. Be a multimillionaire.
5. Take risks with my job, start my own business.
6. Go on a hot air balloon.
7. Start my own foundation to help others.
8. Sleep under the stars.
9. Live in a foreign country.
10. Build my dream house.

I have learnt to think wild and dream BIG, and most importantly have FUN and live no regrets.

Are you a train?

Have you seen one of those model trains in the toy shops?
Going round and round on the same track, always stopping in the same station.
There is no destination, no end.
Is a cycle, repeating itself.

Is your life like a train? Monday till Sunday, morning to night. 365 days, goes on and on. Maybe is time to ask yourself, am I a train? Am I going in circle?

Some people do this because of fear, fear of insecurity and fear of failure. They resist change.
Some people do this because they have no destination, they follow the track without knowing there is no end. They go no where.
Some people do this because they are so used to it. They forget time does not wait.

Dont complaint if you are going in circle.
Stop at a different station, take a deep breathe and tell yourself, maybe is time to drive a car, go on a highway, enjoy the different scenery and go to a place where you have always been dreaming of.

Good luck to your new adventure. :)

i am waiting

i have been waiting, for you arrival.
day by day, month by month...

there is hope, followed by disappointment, and the sun rises again.
goes on and on, this is life.

i have learnt to enjoy the process.
everything happens for a reason, and the reason is to serve me right.
i know when the day comes, i will welcome you whole-heartedly.
i know when you arrive, i will be ready.
i know you are a special gift.

so i will wait here patiently, for your arrival.
i know one day, it will happen.

Is all delusions but LOVE

Just came back from a short trip. I feel refreshed.
I have gathered some new inspirations, some new directions and motivations. :)

But..i am disturbed by what you have done.
I have tried hard to throw you out of my mind. Out of sight, out of mind.
But i could not.
Every little things that I heard about you caused stirs in my heart and in my mind.
I could not tolerate what you have done, your selfish thoughts, your reckless act...
I do not understand.

It takes years to build the trust, but only a few seconds to betray.
I wanted to shout, and wanted to cry...I am frustrated that my tears has gone dry.
No, I don't want to be disturbed anymore, not for your attitude and selfishness.
I have promised myself, and I have decided, it's time to stop.
I cant stop you, because I know is your choice.
I cant only stop myself, stop myself from loving you.

I really think is time to come to an end. I have had enough. We have had enough.

I am trying hard to find the reasons. I do not know what to do, for a long long time, I feel helpless. I am disturbed.
Is a constant struggle.. I still want to believe that all these emotions in me is all delusions.
Is all delusions but LOVE.

Please give me some times, please give us some times.
Maybe one day, we will go distance and let space and calm fill us.
Maybe one day, we shall meet and love again.

Oreo is sick

Ya, oreo is not well for the past few days.
He is just not himself. Quiet and moody.
He is not playful and jumpy, and not annoying...which is very unusual.
He has been having diarrhea and he vomitted too.
Something is not right.

He just had his hair cut.
Maybe is related to this, confidence issue..hmmm
He doesnt like going to the grommers.

I made an appointment for him to see a vet tomorrow.
I am a bit worried.
He is never sick, he is always happy.

Good boy, hope you get well soon.

10 years

How many 10 years do you have in your life?
I never really thought of this until now.
Three of my '10 years' had already gone by in my life, and how many more do I have?
One, two, three or four?

If you are going to die tomorrow, I bet you will do things differently.
You are not going to waste your time, you are not going to just sit on your bump and day-dream.
Please cherish what you have in your life, please dont take things for granted.

Dont leave any regrets behind, dont leave any hatred behind.
You only live once, and please live life to the fullest, please fill your life with loves.

What's going to happen in the next 10 years?
There are so many things to do, so many places to go, so many people to meet...
I am doing little by little everyday.. to accomplish something big :)
Every 10 years is my milestone, every 10 years keep me in check.

How many 10 years do you have?

It's fair

We all like beautiful things, we all want happiness.

The universe is fair, and its devine design is in such a way there is always an opposite force.
I believe opposite attracts, and it is in perfect balance.

When you are at your highest point, you experience your lowest down.
When you felt that you are being loved the most, that's when you felt rejected the most.
When you are in the biggest crowd, that's when you are lonely and empty.
Togetherness always happen when there is seperation.
Likeness always happen with hatred.
Luck always happen with tragic.

We all grow, and we grow with support and challenge.
We will truly enjoy the journey when there is ups and downs.
We treasure and value when we have lost and grieve.
We will be happy, when we appreciate sadness.

While we are all walking our own journey in our seperate life, please dont forget to respect and love. Respect ourselves and love others.