Is all delusions but LOVE

Just came back from a short trip. I feel refreshed.
I have gathered some new inspirations, some new directions and motivations. :)

But..i am disturbed by what you have done.
I have tried hard to throw you out of my mind. Out of sight, out of mind.
But i could not.
Every little things that I heard about you caused stirs in my heart and in my mind.
I could not tolerate what you have done, your selfish thoughts, your reckless act...
I do not understand.

It takes years to build the trust, but only a few seconds to betray.
I wanted to shout, and wanted to cry...I am frustrated that my tears has gone dry.
No, I don't want to be disturbed anymore, not for your attitude and selfishness.
I have promised myself, and I have decided, it's time to stop.
I cant stop you, because I know is your choice.
I cant only stop myself, stop myself from loving you.

I really think is time to come to an end. I have had enough. We have had enough.

I am trying hard to find the reasons. I do not know what to do, for a long long time, I feel helpless. I am disturbed.
Is a constant struggle.. I still want to believe that all these emotions in me is all delusions.
Is all delusions but LOVE.

Please give me some times, please give us some times.
Maybe one day, we will go distance and let space and calm fill us.
Maybe one day, we shall meet and love again.

Oreo is sick

Ya, oreo is not well for the past few days.
He is just not himself. Quiet and moody.
He is not playful and jumpy, and not annoying...which is very unusual.
He has been having diarrhea and he vomitted too.
Something is not right.

He just had his hair cut.
Maybe is related to this, confidence issue..hmmm
He doesnt like going to the grommers.

I made an appointment for him to see a vet tomorrow.
I am a bit worried.
He is never sick, he is always happy.

Good boy, hope you get well soon.

10 years

How many 10 years do you have in your life?
I never really thought of this until now.
Three of my '10 years' had already gone by in my life, and how many more do I have?
One, two, three or four?

If you are going to die tomorrow, I bet you will do things differently.
You are not going to waste your time, you are not going to just sit on your bump and day-dream.
Please cherish what you have in your life, please dont take things for granted.

Dont leave any regrets behind, dont leave any hatred behind.
You only live once, and please live life to the fullest, please fill your life with loves.

What's going to happen in the next 10 years?
There are so many things to do, so many places to go, so many people to meet...
I am doing little by little everyday.. to accomplish something big :)
Every 10 years is my milestone, every 10 years keep me in check.

How many 10 years do you have?